repetition, repetition, repetition
/ The Forming of a Form
“begin with an individual and you find that you have created a type; begin with a type and you find that you have created – nothing”
– F. Scott Fitzgerald
“I have nothing to say and I am saying it” – John Cage
And what if I’m certain of nothing yet I can’t stop repeating myself?
“I” always slams me in the face like an upturned rake I accidentally stepped on, when I forget to hold it up, carry it around, stand it up right on its capitalized serif-supported base.
How do you pronounce “I” when it’s horizontal, laying on its side?
If there is anything of which I am certain it’s that I will never be certain in my skin. In my guts I am sometimes certain but my skin keeps me doubtful, curious, touchy, porous, stretchy, foldable, soft, impressionable, scarred, dried, squishy, wrinkled. Contained, but barely. Bleeding, pushing, cringing, sweating. Hanging off of my skeleton and holding up appearances, clinging to my buoyant flesh, blurring my edges.
What it feels is hard work for words but that it feels is for certain. The only certain thing. ding!
la ballerine appauvrie / O, Poésie
What’s worth repeating – is the question of choreography
What’s worth solidifying from the indefinite dancingness
What’s worth carving in stone, what’s worth writing
What choreo is worth the graphy
Yet change is movement
Or movement is change
And so it goes
that dance is the brokest of all the arts
next to poetry, of course
You, writing that betrays property
that fixes nothing
that proclaims so little and says so much,
You that fails to identify
who makes so many little things worth repeating o’er the ages,
so little worth,
when what’s left unsaid
lets the rest resound
Eleanor Bauer is a choreographer and performer working at the intersections of dance, writing, and music. Originally from Santa Fe, New Mexico, Bauer holds a BFA in Dance from New York University, is a graduate of the Research Cycle at P.A.R.T.S. in Brussels, and is currently based in Stockholm where she is finishing a PhD in Choreography at Stockholm University of the Arts. From solos to talk shows to large ensemble pieces, her versatile works range in scale, media, and genre, and have toured internationally to critical acclaim. Bauer has worked as a performer with, among others, Matthew Barney, Trisha Brown, Anne Teresa De Keersmaeker/Rosas, Xavier Le Roy, Boris Charmatz, David Zambrano, Every Ocean Hughes, The Knife, and Ictus contemporary music ensemble.